Long long time ago...

I've been watching Spice Girls videos on youtube recently. It brings back a lot of memories from my Pri sch and sec sch days.. I can't really remember whether I still liked them in sec 1 or 2... but I was a big fan... and I still am... Their music brings a smile even though they weren't the best singers in the world...

I recently read a post on Sara's blog.. and I laughed when she mentioned me running after the MRT train... I started running at super speed then in sec 3 or 4 it slowed down, in JC I kinda galloped... and then I think I stopped running after that... well I have mellowed for sure... but I remember how it was like to be fearless, loud and looking silly all the time...

y2g... we would scream and shout at games or actually.. everywhere... we didn't care how people viewed us... it really didn't matter as long as we were having fun...
It's true that we don't keep in contact as much but I feel that whenever we meet it's like we haven't been apart for that long and that connection is really special to me... I hope it will always be like that....

I saw on (i think) caddie's facebook... the lyrics of Only love that we wrote in Pasir Ris park... I wonder if it's still there...
Also remembering throwing sparklers out from the maze during Mooncake festival...

I still smile whenever I look at the photos from ahs...

Hey Sara... I too read the letters from sec sch... many of them were hilarious... and I kept a lot of the notes that we used to pass in class! hey and I printed e-cards that we used to send each other... I think bluemountain.com?

I don't really know where this post is going or what I'm trying to say... maybe just saying thanks to y2g for making my sec sch life so much more interesting...

Fiona Apple :: Across The Universe

Nothin interesting to say anyway....

What makes people fall in love with each other? The concept of relationship is still a big mystery to me... I don't know... how can u grow to trust a stranger like u would ur family? The people here are so open to just date strangers and pick them up on chance meetings... It seems a little superficial to me but then who am I to say? Maybe I'm just not adventurous enough or maybe i'm too idealistic... that I think that it's impossible to find someone who can be ur companion on the bus...

And how do u know if that person is not a psycho? U only know the person for what, 10 minutes? How can u know what the person is like, what he/she likes and what he/she doesn't like... How can u give ur number to an (almost) total stranger?

If a person asks u out without any knowledge about u, doesn't that make the person superficial? Surely he or she is more interested in what u look like, or maybe just wants to have some sex some day this week?

Call me skeptical but even at work, people date each other because they like the way the other person look... but looks will fade, when that happens, will they fall in love with what's left of the person? Doesn't personality matter at all? Don't they want someone to share their happy moments and their sadness they go through in their day? So what has looks got to do with anything?

Falling in love means risking yourself, your emotions, your body and your energy... how do people give themselves so freely, so easily to a random person? Doesn't it hurt when u realise that it was given to the wrong person?

I guess i'm idealistic because I believe that there should be more than just phyiscal attraction so I still refuse to put on make-up, wear heels and conform to the male expectations of how a woman should look... people don't realise how hard it is to not conform and then watch as everyone else find someone to love.... but i'll hold out a little longer... perhaps someone can like me for my personality, perhaps not... we shall see...

Day to day....

Right now, I'm just living day to day... some days are good, other days better and some days just totally bad... it can feel like a menstruation cycle in one day...

So today, it's a normal day... but I get it that I have to learn to appreciate the good days and be grateful for what I have... it's not as easy as it sounds... but I can always try...

Moving here was difficult, it still is... but I think that my life is enriched even if there are hard knocks here and there... but mayb life is more interesting that way.. Like my sister says, u can't appreciate good times if u never went through bad times...

I do see more, know more and I feel more than I did in Singapore...

It was a happier time then... but I think that change is ultimately something good.... and even in my semi-depressed period, I'm glad that I'm experiencing change...

Perhaps I can look back one day some day in the future and I realise that everything worked out just fine.....

Seasons of Love