How long.....?

How long before we can be on our own....?

I want my freedom...
freedom to express myself,
freedom to scream and shout,
freedom to defy authority....
freedom to mess up my own room
freedom to not do anything

I don't want to ask for permission for everything... but apparently I have to... but Why should I? (see? it goes on and on... my life in this place is just so conflicted)

So much for Liberty in America...

Don't think i ever felt this trapped before...

My sister is frustrated... I'm frustrated....

Damn.... how long before we can get away from here?

I sound like a damn ungrateful brat whinning....

"Look at all the good things you've got..."

Yes, I've got a roof over my head, bills paid for, transportation... but at what cost?

I think I sound crazy when I say this... but I think a part of myself is slowly dying away as I start to conform....

I hate the person I am now... thought I can go anywher, do anything... but now I'm so full of self-doubt....

It's like permanently having a bad day.... it goes on and on.... and worse now it's gettin monotonous...

Damn...

*sigh* I'm using the new blogger program and I tried to change the image of my blog... but then easier said than done... the new system doesn't allow me to change the skin, header, fonts as easily as the old system... (that my sis uses)

So now, she has a brand new and cool background... while I can only use the default templates that blogger has given... sian.....

Cos we were "shopping" for the skins and we excitedly download many very nice templates... only to realise that mine doesn't work at all... So ya... now i jus haf to satisfy with the little I could change....

If ANYONE knows how to change the blog template of the new blogger system... help...?

In the wee small hours of the morning... I crave for...

Geylang fish soup, Ban mian, Hokkien mee, Chicken rice, Satay & Ketupat,
Zhui kuay....

The list goes on...

It doesn't help that i haven't eaten my lunch yet... but i really miss the food in Singapore... woah liao... the urge is overwhelming... but of cos, reality always hits me back in the face as i realise I'm 18 hours away from all that... I wish I can find these here man... but u noe... while i was in Singapore... i nv always appreciated the food... i guess distance really does makes the heart grow fonder...

So now i shall go and make my lunch-

Daily Lunch Menu in SF

1) Sandwiches (egg mayo/smoked salmon/ham)
2) Instant noodles (chicken/beef/seafood soup base)
3) Mac cheese (Original/white cheese/cheddar)

Take ur pick.........

Just a note...

Hey guys... sorry about my semi-depression state a few weeks back...
Guess it was the holiday season and well... it just feels much more lonely than it would on normal days....
So I'm glad that is over... I'm now back in normal mode and hope it stays that way... =)

Thanks guys for all ur encouraging notes... =)

Let's Hang On (to what we've got)

"Jersey Boys" - the story of Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons

This is the musical I'm watching almost everyday... and gonna continue to watch indefinitely....

Damn.... the songs frm "Jersey Boys" are stuck in my head... haha... they are wonderful songs... too much of the same thing is never good... but the songs r so fun I'm not sick of them yet... plus the cast of the musical is so wonderful (and handsome)... *sigh*

It's actually a lot more fun to watch the reaction of the audience cos alot of them grew up listening to Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons... the '50s, '60s, '70s... so it's like goin down memory lane for them...

It's probably like me listening to Spice Girls and Backstreet Boys...

Today I was just discussing with my grandma that the songs frm the past is so much better than the songs nowadays... it's the same for Cantonese, Mandarin and English songs...

I feel that there are too many crappy songs out that nowadays that are just out to entertain... Perhaps the music industry today simply reflects what the society is now- shallow

Maybe that's why I'm still not sick of the songs from Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons... cos it was frin an age where people put alot more of themselves into the songs they write and the songs they sing...