No regrets...

Just thinking... if I were to die tomorrow...

Think I will regret not saying goodbye to all the people I love... friends and family...

Not being able to live to see more of the world... the world 30 years from now... what would it be like?

I would also probably regret not experiencing love and love lost in a relationship... they write poems, songs and make movies about this... 'tis a pity that I never experienced it...

I hope that I have lived a meaningful life so far... There aren't many regrets in my life... I am loved by my family and friends... and guess that's more than good enough for me..

Anything can happen and I hope I can remember not to take living another day for granted...
I think it's important to know that you are loved and to tell people you care about them...


"No day but today"
- RENT

JERRY JEFF WALKER - Mr Bojangles

This is the song... scroll down for lyrics.. this video is from 1978 from a gameshow... be patient with the chat in the beginning of the video... the songs starts 2 minutes 17 secs later.. but it's a really sincere song... enjoy...

Mr Bojangles- by Jerry Jeff Walker

I would like to share the lyrics to a song that I really like. There are not many songs today that speak out so sincerely to me.


Mr Bojangles

I knew a man Bojangles and he'd dance for you
In worn out shoes
Silver hair and ragged shirt and baggy pants
He did the old soft shoe
He jumped so high he jumped so high
Then he'd lightly touch down

I met him in a cell in New Orleans
I was down and out
He looked to me to be the eyes of age
As he spoke right out
He talked of life he talked of life
He laughed slapped his leg a step

He said the name Bojangles and he danced a lick across the cell
He grabbed his pants a better stance then he jumped so high
He clicked his heels
He let go a laugh oh he let go a laugh

Shook back his clothes all around

Mr. Bojangles
Mr. Bojangles
Mr. Bojangles
Dance

He danced for those at minstrel shows and county fairs throughout the South
He spoke with tears of fifteen years how his dog and him traveled about
His dog up and died he up and died
After twenty years he still grieves

He said I dance now at every chance in honky tonks for drinks and tips
But most o' the time I spend behind these county bars
Hell I drinks a bit
He shook his head and as he shook his head
I heard someone ask him please.

Mr. Bojangles
Mr. Bojangles
Mr. Bojangles
Dance

Some things to be thankful for...

1. I am still alive

I can be sad, a little depressed, angry, pissed but really, I don't want to die...
"I'm not scared of dying I just don't want to" - Come Undone, Robbie Williams



2. I am healthy

I can still walk, run, dance, shout, laugh, listen, feel, see, smell...



3. I have food to eat, water to drink, shelter above my head

Not everyone in the world can say this...



4. Tragedies have not happened to me

Everyone I love is still with me... my mum, dad, sister, friends...
My life is peaceful and I have not gone through any life changing traumas...
I don't live in a war-plagued country... I don't wake up to sounds of bombs, gunshots, screams...



I am not always grateful for things and people in my life... but at this point of time, I am...

School...

It is tiring to be working and studying at the same time... I wonder how some of my other colleagues to work full time and are full time students do it? I am only working part time and I find it difficult to manage both of them at the same time... Everyday i'm too tired to do the work... and I end up accumulating... I have been more consistent with my homework and reading than back in SMU... I remember reading all the materials for the first time for my Political Science course with Joyce... and ended up eating only... think i went to catch a movie after... talk about priorities...

A lot of people here put themselves through college on their own... not to mention pay their rent (most of them move out after turning 18)... Rent here is insanely crazy... so I really dunno how they do it... they might take a little longer to finish sch... but that's alright cos they are enjoying all their experiences in their lives... and they lead lives that are not as conventional... and I kinda admire that...

In Asia, I would think that the road is pretty straight forward and people who take a detour has a load of judgement on them... so I think that second chances and opportunities to get back on track is something that would be nice to have in Singapore too...
Zan was saying that she feels weird going back to sch at 21... but here I have classmates who are 40 +... one of them is in my hip hop class... Truly life long learning...

Damn I really miss the food in Singapore... don't know what the crap I am eating most of these days... would like some Hokkien mee, Bedok zhui gui and 5-star chicken rice...

Haven't been up to date with things in Singapore... cos nobody sends me any email updates?!! ya i know, I should just go and read the newspaper... will update again soon...