How long.....?
How long before we can be on our own....?
I want my freedom...
freedom to express myself,
freedom to scream and shout,
freedom to defy authority....
freedom to mess up my own room
freedom to not do anything
I don't want to ask for permission for everything... but apparently I have to... but Why should I? (see? it goes on and on... my life in this place is just so conflicted)
So much for Liberty in America...
Don't think i ever felt this trapped before...
My sister is frustrated... I'm frustrated....
Damn.... how long before we can get away from here?
I sound like a damn ungrateful brat whinning....
"Look at all the good things you've got..."
Yes, I've got a roof over my head, bills paid for, transportation... but at what cost?
I think I sound crazy when I say this... but I think a part of myself is slowly dying away as I start to conform....
I hate the person I am now... thought I can go anywher, do anything... but now I'm so full of self-doubt....
It's like permanently having a bad day.... it goes on and on.... and worse now it's gettin monotonous...
3 comments:
yo, Rachel.. its xueli here... wahaha... guess what u and my sister has teh same blog skin... haha
so I can now tell oi ying our sis has the same blogskin..
crap, anyway, I think u really missed too by us in spore, by your parents too, definitely. ya, it gets sore sometimes, but I think compared to many spore gals your age, you so much more independent. SO cheer up ya, ur parents and new place will come soon, and in the meantime, look around and explore the pplace, pple, do things which cant be done in the little island...
cheer up ya?
hey rachel, miss u lots.. things wld get better eventually, and who knows all these nasty feelings and experience are gonna make u even stronger!! so dn b so down, we are just an email away!! :) btw, gd news for u, my bro's baby boy is being born today!! i m still awaiting the actual 'he's out!' news.. i m damn excited..just wanna share it w u.. will send u pics if u are intereste!
Hey rach!
Sorry, i was always in class when u signed in msn. Btw, i'm having class now too... hehehe.
Have fatih that things will only get better! Yr parents and a new place will come soon! 3 seconds =)
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