No complains

So... I was gonna find some time to sit down and write a little... The subject says it all... I have no complains about my life... there's a lot to be happy for... and if I only see what I don't have or keep wishing for things that I did have... then I guess I'll never really be a very happy person...

So that's what I'll try to do... to see the present for all that I have and be glad about it...

Moving in to a new place, there is a lot of things that we still need to buy and sort out... but we are getting there... my parents are evidently happier and less stressful which in turns makes me so much more relieved... my sister is in a new phase of her life and also enjoying it...

For me? well... I am dancing again.... i'm stiff and a little uncomfortable having stopped for some time but the feeling of dancing is indescribable... it's very liberating that I can do this again...

It was crazy but I cried in class today... the teacher asked us to think about a place that I like being in while we closed our eyes and I thought of the path that I used to walk home from Kembangan MRT station... it was quiet and serene and even at 11pm, there was no paranoia or fear... I missed that very much...

Then I thought about sitting at East Coast Park... I cycled there once to read V for Vendetta... there was salt on my skin, I was sticky all over but the breeze and the sunlight on my face... I thought nothing of it then but now, I missed being alone with myself... having no obligation to speak or fill gaps of silence among people... or even with myself...

So today when we got to sit down and be silent and still with myself, I couldn't really contain my emotions... I haven't been with myself for such a long time that it overwhelmed me...

Thankfully no one saw me crying, I didn't burst out in tears but I will tearing... it was a happy moment for me today...

I look forward to coming back to Singapore... I will be saying this everytime... just as I have been saying i want to leave macy's for the past 12 months... a year will fly by before I know it... will be seeing everyone soon...

Love,
Rachel~