Well....

Haven't been blogging for months... so many things have happened but then... blogging about them would be like reliving these horrors...
Controlling, possessive, jealousy, hate mails... man just leave me alone... I have enough problems as it is... don't need this to add to my list of problems...

So I hope that this insane chapter has finally closed and that it will no longer bother me...

Sometimes I still don't know why I came over here... I feel so miserable and oppressed sometimes that I wish I was still in Singapore... ya maybe I'll miss out on some experiences here but at least I am happier...

It's not the country.... just where I am living...

Well... we are now looking for a place to rent and move out... it's about time... my parents have suffered so much in this household that it's painful just looking at them... we must go soon... we are all dying from the inside...

Bad things have been happening in chains and I just hope that nothing bad will happen to my parents, my sister or me... we can't afford to lose anyone if we are all that we have here...

Please protect and bless us...

Things will be better soon.... i just know it will....

So long and thanks for all the fish

Hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy! It's one of my favourite shows! I remember watching this in the cinema... think it was TM... and laughing so loud... and this is just the opening credits of the show...

One of the things can make me smile to myself when I'm alone and thinking about it so that the people around thinks i'm crazy....

Fantaghirò - Mio Nemico

It's from one of mine and my sister's favourite fantasy show when we were younger... it's a really good show... It's on DVD in German and I heard Italian... but we are really hoping that they'll have one with English audio or at least have English subtitles for the other languages... If any of you happen to know of such a version out there... PLEASE let me know...

Queen and David Bowie - Under Pressure

Watching some good friends scream: "Let me out!"

Really enjoy this video.. Queen songs always give me a point of release... u know when u r singing out of tune and still screaming the song... damn good feeling...

This is ourselves... under pressure...

Different now but same as before...

I look at some of your blogs and I think how different you guys are... the way you look, the way you express yourself, your thoughts and your ideals... well blogs are not exactly the best way to see someone but u see a glimpse of their lives through what they write on their blogs... For those I haven't been catching up with, your changes surprise me in many ways but I can still see the essence of the you that I know... the feeling like you can meet up tomorrow and realize it still feels like yesterday... pretty amazing...

Though I feel sad sometimes reading the blogs because people think that containing sadness is strength... I guess just like men don't like people to see them cry... but it's so much harder to contain sadness and paint a picture that everything is still ok and life is going to be better when sometimes it just doesn't seem that way.. It's something I haven't gone through but I do think that what can't kill you will definitely make you stronger... I have gone through some shit in life... not the same shit that others might be going through... but I'd like to think that I'm a stronger person now than before I left Singapore...

Laugh but cry as well... that's life...


Love,
Rachel~