"Man on the Moon" - R.E.M

I just finished watching "Man on the Moon" a biography on comedian Andy Kaufman. Great movie.

I Will Follow You into the Dark

This is one of favourite songs... enjoy all...

Chaotic!

Woah... today was there was a CNY parade! It was crazily chaotic! It was super crowded and what's worse we had to make our way to work in 1/2 hour... It was like being in a maze... The orange route is the usual route and it takes about 5 mins to walk to the theatre (X)

We were running madly in circles (Refer to Fig 1- purple route) around Union Square only to find that we are trapped inside... there are only 2 small openings and eventually we had to run across the pararde while it was in session... We thought we were very near the theatre so we took our own sweet time, watched a little of the parade, only to panic later! Had a good workout though... haha.. but at least nxt yr we'll know what to do...

The following is an amateur's version of a map:

Fig 1 (Reminds me of the diagrams I used to draw at A level Geo)

These days...

Things r lookin up... although occassionally i stil goof up and I feel bad about makin mistakes... but I'm learnin to b more forgiving to myself...

I stil get a culture shock after almost 3 months here... but I'm startin to get used to things... (translate to: I'm less shocked by what I experience)

I'm happier because I still talk to my friends in Singapore... u guys keep me sane... n help me feel at home, far from home... so thanks to all of u...

Insecurity still creeps up on me because I have to leave my comfort zone and explore new territories... but I hope it'll b a gd learning experience for me eventually....

Still find it strange to blog... bcos I'm not used to sharing my thoughts so openly... i don't really like to feel so transparent... maybe that's y my blog entry stil scratching the surface of my whole experience here in San Francisco...
And I dun wanna sound like an airhead by sayin this but I dun really like to think and probe into things... I like to live in the moment... so mayb that's y I dun seem to have a lot of deep thoughts on my blog... haha.. but really I dun really like to think that much... but I'm happy this way! =)

How long.....?

How long before we can be on our own....?

I want my freedom...
freedom to express myself,
freedom to scream and shout,
freedom to defy authority....
freedom to mess up my own room
freedom to not do anything

I don't want to ask for permission for everything... but apparently I have to... but Why should I? (see? it goes on and on... my life in this place is just so conflicted)

So much for Liberty in America...

Don't think i ever felt this trapped before...

My sister is frustrated... I'm frustrated....

Damn.... how long before we can get away from here?

I sound like a damn ungrateful brat whinning....

"Look at all the good things you've got..."

Yes, I've got a roof over my head, bills paid for, transportation... but at what cost?

I think I sound crazy when I say this... but I think a part of myself is slowly dying away as I start to conform....

I hate the person I am now... thought I can go anywher, do anything... but now I'm so full of self-doubt....

It's like permanently having a bad day.... it goes on and on.... and worse now it's gettin monotonous...